Thursday, July 27, 2006

Yawnz...just woke up from a night of fun at Zouk. Finally had a night of dance without getting myself dead drunk. Basically it was quite fun except for a few areas. The happy part first.

Juniors Garnets had an outing yesterday, and for dunno what reason i tagged along. We had dinner at Maxwell Food Center, where we chatted and joked. Then we went a board game shop called Pitstop i think, where we played those games which cannot be found easily at Singapore's departmental stores. I have long heard about these board games shops which attracted hoards of youngsters and yesterday was the first time i stepped into one of those.

I feel it's quite a good experience where one can spend a day playing games with a few friends, as some of the games are really quite fun. Shall return one of these days with my friends to play more games.

After that, a couple of us went Zouk. It was a different experience i guess. It is the first time i clubbed with my uni friends as i normally have a fixed clubbing cliche. But in any case, crowd was good, clubbing khakis were great, music wise i would just give it 6/10.

Here comes the bad part. I was pung seh again. Well well, what's new. Hmphz. I wouldn't want to give names nor go into details. Come on, firstly i was being forgetten on the bus the other day, and yesterday this. For yesterday, i had pay more for my cab fare. It's not i cannot afford the cab fare, though i am turned off by the steep fare but it's the feeling.

It makes me question myself, not others. Am i such a turnoff or a lousy person? It is a very tough question to ask and equally tough to answer. I am not a person who likes to live in self deception so i have to give myself a reality check every now and then. For one thing, i think i am a nice person. I always try to be the best and true to everyone around me but it might not be as pleasing to other people.

Sometimes i do feel upset because i appear to be a crap person and nothing else. Indeed, i am a person full of crap shit. All the crazy shits that i do, i enjoy it and i laugh it off. But it seems to me that people think i dun need anything else. It seems to me that people doesn't know that i do feel unhappy, sad when i get bullied or even angry when i feel unjustified.

Normally i do not feel anything for this kind of thing because i do not want people's action to affect me. But when i am subjected to shit repetitively, sometimes my wall of defence just crumble and need some time to repair my defence wall again.

They told me we are family. Isn't family supposed to protect me from harm? haha. Family? Fine, only when you all change your surname to LEE, then we can talk.

I woud be up again because i would be going to Bangkok. Yes, i am looking forward to be happy and repair my wall. No shit for 5 days



Saturday, July 22, 2006

Back from my 3rd FOC camp, most likely the last one in my life. It was an enjoyable 5 days, not so much of knowing chio or yandao juniors. I enjoyed myself very much because in these 5 days, i get to know my friends betters. In other words, to me it is a gathering of friends.

During school term, everyone is busy with something. It is during this time of the year, friends get together and do stupid things and have a good laugh over nothing. I think i will never forget how all of us sit together to talk cock over a KFC meal or to stand around to laugh at the silly things the freshies do. With each FOC, the few of us just became closer to one another. I wasn't that close to Maxine, Jin Ting, Angela or even my senior Kelvin as a matter. After these few days, i felt as if we have known each other for years. It is simply weird how a camp can bring people together.

Anyway, looking at the freshies just reminded me during my freshies time. I think i was one of the most 'off' freshie during the camp. I am very sure my GLs, like Kelvin, Jinping they all wouldn't have remembered me if i didn;t see them often in school. Cos i was damn quiet and off. Indeed, i am a person who is slow to warm up to others cos i think i am quite conscious of how strangers view me. I guess it is one way how i protect myself as well. Butbut but..i am very sure Kelvin and Jinping would never imagine me to be as crazy as i am today.

Actually how i present to my friends is what i am. From the start. The FOC nor the uni changed me. I am a crazy person to begin with. Licking people, crazy ideas with crazy laughters. I am totally with these man! haha
Of course, there's another side of one which i dun normally show people. I am sure everyone has their dark side which we dun show people.

Anyway, something happened during the camp as well. One guy from my year suddenly my OG as a senior. From the start, he wasn't welcomed by all because he has a bad reputation. Then as the camp progressed, his action just irked most of us. Hence we had a showdown with him after the camp yesterday.

Actually, i was unhappy over the incident as well. Of course i was naturally angry that he tried to be funny with my OG's females, but somehow i was unhappy also we had to resort to like tell him straight at the face that we dun like him. Personally, i wouldn't want to "gan jin sha jue" meaning to have a showdown because the guy might feel upset about the whole thing. Maybe i pity him or something, cos i know from my friends that he has a bad reputation to begin with, doesn't have many friends. This incident is not going to do his reputation or his already diminished circle of friends any good.

Am i too soft hearted or just pure wrong usage of pity?



Saturday, July 15, 2006

Yesterday was my last day of my attachment at ING Bank Corporate Finance...as i've told some of my friends...i felt relief when i walked out of the office because i actually survived 10 weeks of relentless OTs...many many late nights without dinner.From now onwards, for 1 year at least, i can bide farewell to terms like "OT King" or "Raffles Place slave".

Seriously, i have learnt a lot from my stint in ING Bank. Of course with it, was the price of OTs. From it, i have realised investment banking isn't wat i really want. Glamourous as it is, the long hours just too much and they mainly doing powerpoints and letter writing. Doesn't sound like i want. At least it is not too late to realise what i DUN want to do in the future.

To sidetrack a bit, Juventus, Lazio and Fiorentina kenna big time in the match fixing fiasco. As much as i am not a soccer fan, they are quite a big club in Italy. Juventus especially champion european champion. Anyway, now that Juventus is going to relegate to Series B, many big players will on sale. Lelong! Lelong! Juventus cui big time. Suddenly they are reduced to ashes.
And i doubt they will be able to raise from the ashes.

Seems like the three clubs's Great Italy Sale is better than Great Singapore Sale. Can rival Bangkok liaoz



Sunday, July 09, 2006

Actually if you bother to look closely, the MRT is an interesting place to observe how a typical Singaporean behaves.

Singaporeans have long been critised for being discourteous and it is can be very true to a large extent. How many times have you encountered passengers who sprinted to the empty seats faster than the national sprinter? Or those nuisance chaps who sit near the door when there isn't enuff space to go around?

It crossed my mind just now while on the train that it's quite saddening for Singaporeans to fail badly in the Courtesy department. Have all of us gone wrong somewhere along the way or we didn't bother to keep up the "spare-a-thought-for-others' attitude with our increasing affluence?

I was thinking, we are fighting for a seat as if we have stood for days now, what would happen to us when there comes a day where we dun have food and we would be fighting for food instead. Seriously, for the latter i can understand where we need to fight for survival. But fighting for seats???

In terms of living standards, Singapore is enjoying a First World living standard. We have the most efficient transportation system, a hi-tech communications system, population that has the more handphones than the population itself but we can't say the same thing about basics like courtesy and manners.

I am not sure how effective is the Courtesy Campaign but i haben seen it for a long time. The Courtesy Lion is quite cute and of course has a special place in my childhood memories. That aside, we should build on the courtesy campaign to inculcate that quality in which we are lacking in. What spending millions on advertising for the World Bank meeting, or Speak good english campaign? What are all these when citizens don't know how to behave the way how a rich country with highly educated citizens?

A point to ponder about. Feel free to leave comments!



Monday, July 03, 2006

For those of you who thought my blog has died..nahz..i am just too busy and too tired to make a proper entry. To appease my faithful readers...i shall post an entry today!! So..bow to me and call me King!!

Most people would always prefer to talk about their strengths or good points rather than their bad points. Let's explore this issue then? What actually do you think are areas which you dislike about urself? I certainly think i have some imperfections

1) Ugly. Hhaa..Take a look at my face you know liaoz. Period

2) Sings horribly. U cannot believe how badly i go out of tune...u would want to put a stopper into my mouth when i start singing.

3) Being single. Not that i hate that tag of being single, but no one believes i have been single for the whole of 23 years! I tell you, i get 3 secs of silence when i told ppl that. I am not sure if they need 3 secs to stomach the shock or need 3 secs to say " What is this fucker doing for the past 23 years?? Eat, sleep and shit?? in their mind. I dunno either haha. Am i a sad case or wat?

4) Cannot do anything right. Trust me, it is very true x10. Everyone has their niche area and i am not even sure where's mine. Am i gd in sports? Obviously not. Am i gd in workin? Not very i think.

5) Temper. Seriously, i have a very very bad temper...I flare up easily and it can be bad as well..

From the look of it, it seems as if i am a good-for-nothing...haha..but what the heck do i have a choice? Happy? No. Unhappy? No neither