Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Shitty, stressed is what i am feeling right now

First up: I fared poorly for my 206 quiz. I didn't failed but compared to the rest, my lousiness just magnifies. I knew i didn't do well after the quiz, today was just a confirmation.

Tonnes of things just piled up. Next week there is a 306 quiz(again) which i am damn unsure of plus a 306 presentation which i need to spend a lot of time on.

Rubbing salt into my wounds, i need to revamp my 206 report and there is the financial modelling project due soon.

Stress is still fine when efforts are paid off. When it is not, it is just pure shit.

I am just pure angry. Angry at myself and no one else. I am angry for being so incompetent, for being not smart. People say i expect too much from myself, putting myself under stress. Probably, but it's how i function. So i can't blame other people, but myself when i fail. On one hand, i think i cannot make it, that i am lousier than the rest. On the other hand, i want to believe that i am good.

If i am on court right now, i would probably have broken 2 tennis racquets. I am serious. I spare people from my temper, but not non living things.

The situation is like this right now: I have lost the first set of the match and i need to win the second set to stay alive. Rule is simple, win or risk being eliminated. That's how i see it.

I maybe unsure if i am better than the rest or smarter than the rest. But i am very sure of one thing about myself. My fighting spirit cannot be undermined. I simply dun give up until i have lost completely. The current situation just ignites my fighting spirit to be stronger. This is one point i like about myself and how i need to stay alive.

I may have lost a set, feeling frustrated and down, broken 2 racquets. I need to smack my thighs 2 times and still believe that i can win.

Just watch how i am going to turn the situation around and win the match.



Monday, October 23, 2006

Totally shagged out today

My schedule for today:

650am-- woke up to get ready for school

830am-- met up with my 206 project mates to rehearse for today's project presentation

1030am-- 306 lecture..didn't really understand what the lecturer was saying

1230pm-- Met up for FYP discussion cos later need to meet FYP tutor

230pm-- 206 project presentation. I think our group did ok..wasn't fantastic

430pm-- FYP meeting with tutor

530pm-- End of school...

simply so tired and my brain is not exactly working liaoz..so weak..arghh

Need a nap before doing some reading

Shit continues...



Saturday, October 21, 2006

2 evidences that i was trained to be a money grabber from young.

During my time, those 'idol cards' bearing pictures of idols such as Viven Chow, The 4 Heavenly Kings and the likes of Grasshoppers were in vogue. Just put 20cents into those machines and you will get a card. I was part of the craze as well. I probably spent my free time after school turning those knobs and get those cards. How elated i was when i got those 'Gold Cards' !(Merely some stickers with reflective glitter) My friends and i began trading among one another, selling and exchanging cards for cards which we didn't have and for $$...It was kind of like barter trade in modern sense. How on earth 10 year old kids like us began knowing how to profit from things which we have extras of??

Next Story: All my readers>> u r going to like this.

I enjoyed going to my maternal grandma's house when i was young. Apart from the company of my elder cousin, i was on a mission to earn some extra pocket money. My cousin and i would always offer/sometimes forced to pluck those moustache from my uncle's face using those pinchers. I think we also did massage and scratching of back. In short, we were like masseurs.
In return for our effort, we were rewarded with $5!! Which was a lot 10-13 years back.

How did i spend the reward?? I am damn sure i spent them all on sweets and stationeries.Heehee

See, I am born to earn money...School didn't teach me.



Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Long time never update my blog...so here am i doing a quick update here

Been quite busy this week..all thanks to my 206 project...still not quite done yet and with all these projects and exams coming up, my life is as gd as dead..so nothing much to blog about..cos life is pretty much stale and boring. Need a life man!

Itching to play tennis but no one seems to be free when i am free. Need some physical exercise to vent my stress and anger..screaming at myself and all..haha i enjoy it

Anyway, i was late for class a couple of times last week and i realised whenever i was late, i would think that my watch was a bit slow ( for instance, if i was still in the bus when my clock showed 10.30 am, i tried to convince myself that the actual time was only 10.25am) It doesn't help but somewhere i tend to do this.

Do you guys do this??



Tuesday, October 10, 2006

My clubbing bug is acting up on me again. Itching for some Zouk action, but i am just too busy to go chiong! Darn.....

My mind is filled with the the Belinda Carlisle, Square Rooms, Kylie songs!! Arghh...how!? I can only go after my exams..which is like end of next month??

Anyway, today was a damn lousy day. Not to mention it was the Monday with oh-so-blue. Firstly, i left the house without an important document which i needed to hand up to my tutor. And for the god damn piece of paper, i had to rush back home by cab after my lecture, before my next lesson. $14.50 btw..heart bled.

Anyway, i realised i left the paper before my lecture which was ard 10am. And just before my lecture, the printer which i went to print my lecture note actually ran out of ink, after i had paid for it! Suay x2

I cursed but still i decided to amend the situation by borrowing the notes from Kaijie to print at the photocopying room. Guess what, i actually printed only 7 pages out of 18!!! Suay x3

Kaoz..Monday was seriously not my day. Should have stayed at home to let the suayness subside.



Tuesday, October 03, 2006

I have been dreaming of going on a holiday until i become crazy. So i have decided to satisfy myself a bit by imaging myself travelling to countries for a holiday. (No quiz, no worries about job!)

So i went to the following places:



Sydney!

Look how happy Audrey and I are in the picture! The view at the Sydney Opera House was just stunning! Audrey is my best friend anyway and we enjoyed ourselves so much during our stay in Australia.

After spending time in Australia....






Here am i in St Petersburg, Russia!

Yeahz, look how stunning the St Basil is..woo hoo!!

It was nice to be in Russia alone and it's totally safe!

After basking myself among the Russia babes ( the likes of Sharapova)...my next stop......



Paris!! The actual spot where they filmed The Da Vinci Code! So cool... it's really a very romantic place to be in! Europe...my drea

And then i flew to......



New York, USA!! I was under the Statute of Liberty nose!! Finally i stepped onto the soil of the Big Apple

Folks, that's the end of my round world trip that i embarked on!! Dun be envious...you can do the same...


Thanks Chang!( For the photoshop effects, i love it!)



Monday, October 02, 2006

Finally my 306 quiz is over. I dun think i did well, because i was confused by the question and all. But heck, i did what i could.

I decide to give myself a break today. No tutorial, no textbook. Just to eat and sleep and watch tv. I seriously need this break for i just spent my last week studying for the quiz and doing project.

Shall do my tutorials tml since no class for me. But will be attending Barclays recruitment talk. My dream company to work for...hee