Sunday, March 05, 2006

On my way to school for my seminar on friday morning, i was on a train, half sleeping cos it was only 745am. Then i saw a mid age( i tink late 30s to early 40s) man sitting inside the train with a book. " 1008 ways to being a happy couple" i tink the last word was couple, it was covered by a piece of paper.

It got me thinking. Are we so pathetic that we have to depend on a stupid book to tell us how to be happy? It is kinda sad to read a book on happiness right? I can envision the things inside the book.

1) treat your spouse as if u just got married
2) spend 2-3 hrs daily to communicate not just talk
3) If you have children, send them away once in a while so u have spend time alone with your spouse
4) Have sex regularly

come on, i didn't even read the book and i have an idea how to approach this kind of thing. Spend 30 bucks just to know these kind of general knowledge?? Learning to be happy doesn't need reading from book. It doesn't have a formula to calculate happiness nor is it a very difficult topic that needs some research.

Observation. Just observe what ur spouse wants and needs lahz
Mindset. Happiness is all about mindset isn't it?

That guy is just plain stupid. very dumb in fact and he still tot he is clever by learning happiness in a book. And no wonder the writer knows how to write the book. With these kind of dumb ass around, he is of course laughing his way to the bank!



Friday, March 03, 2006

damn depressed today lahz.kenna rejected by bank of nova scotia for my pa.i didn't even shortlisted for interview.damn. am i lousy or wat. maybe a bit sore and questioning wat went wrong.i dun think i am super good and brilliant but i think i deserved an interview.

So what has my so called good grades and CCA helped me in my internship?? Nothing! Then why am i slogging my hearts to join CCA..which supposed to add value to my resume and soft skills? So it turned out to be a futile attempt. Haiz

Friends, stop telling me that i am in fact very outstanding. No..i say again i am not. This thing confirmed my side of the story again. I try to be outstanding but in actual fact i am not. I am just an average guy with average intellect average thinking. While i know there are " higher mountains" around, i am just trying to be the best that i can. It is not so much of lacking in self confidence but more of knowing what i stand in reality.

Adding to my sorrows, i screwed up my presentation and my 201 in class assignment! WTF!!! all these shit ain't helping me man! I am going to do badly for this sem...and i was disappointed enuff over my dismay grades last sem..and i want to do well so badly.

Fucking badly. And hopefully my hunger for success is enuff to care me thru.

And this PA thing shows how society can be so cruel. Maybe i haben learn the tricks to survive in the working world.