Friday, May 05, 2006

This morning i just to sign contract with the company i am going to be doing my professional attachment with. I can't believe that i am going to be thrown into the corporate jungle this coming Monday!!

i dunno how i feel. It is a mixture of uneasiness and looking forward. I am kinda worried that i would not be able to rise up to the occasion and perform beyond expectation. For sure i expect a lot a lot from myself but i am not very sure if it is enough in the corporate world. Of course, i dun think i would be doing a lot of significant stuff being an intern but it is the really the first time i am working in an office. A real office.

What if i am fucking slow in doing work? What if my superior is not on friendly terms with me? What if i cock up the things i am going to do?

On the other hand, i am kinda looking forward to the new phrase of my school life. I would be able to learn new skills which is really used in the working world. Things which i dunno. And it would definitely shows how myopic am i and how little knowledge i have. I want to make sure i am able to survive out there when i am no longer sheltered by the school. I am all ready to slog my heart out, i am fine with OTs to midnight because i dun have much life. As long as i get the job done with my team. i am fine too if i need to work during weekends if i can really contribute. I am very sure i would be able to gain a whole new insight on the entire world at the end of my internship.

I dunno if my friends know me as such a person, but i feel i am an aggressive and have a strong desire for success. And now it is the time to put my aggression and desire to the litmus test. I am not going all out to impress whoever, but i certainly want to do my very best and make sure my performance is up to the mark.

So, i guess the days of being wild and all, getting drunk is certainly over. I need to move on to the demands of life. No more Sean baby, haha. Just need to stay focus and slog my way in Downtown. Aim? Survive out there in the Downtown and assure myself that i am at least good in my work.